WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU SURRENDER?

Hello Loves,

How are You? I missed posting here last month... It has been an interesting time for sure! I'm curious to know what Y'all have been experiencing as well ❤️!

June feels like it is so far away and so much has happened that I am not sure where to begin... The last newsletter was sharing about "surrender" and how I was not quite aware yet of what my Higher Self was guiding me to do exactly. The last couple months have reminded me that sometimes we have to know what we really don't want or like in order to know what really feels aligned for our Self... Sometimes we have to experience Frustration, Anger, and Perceived Confusion in order to finally Surrender to what is and ACCEPT ALL OF IT so we are able to release any form of resistance (thoughts or physical sensations) in order to create the opportunity to move forward in our knowing ❤️

Now, I am not saying that I like all the things in this life or in my direct environment all the time AND it is up to me to choose what I focus on in each moment. Simultaneously, it is also up to me to BE Aware of my body and how it is attempting to guide me through the sensations it is feeling as I choose to focus on whatever is in front of me. Your body will NEVER lie to You... It is always giving us clues as to how to proceed in every experience. It speaks in simple terms... Tensing, tightening up, fists clenching, guts churning, voices in the head getting louder (discomfort)... You may want to observe a little more before responding otherwise you risk saying or doing something you'd like to take back. If everything in your body feels easy, open, fluid or things are coming to you easily... You can know that you are on the right track even if the environment doesn't look the way you think it should in your limited mind. 

Since 2010 when my friend and teacher, Troy Bunnell, introduced me to The Abundance Book by John Randolph Price, I have followed the 40-Day meditation in the book a handful of times. Usually, when I choose to do the meditation it is because I am feeling so much lack and desperation that I have no choice but to surrender to the Universe. The readings to focus on each day do not share anything with me that I don't already agree with or practice. What the meditation helps me do is create a new routine where I sit every morning and connect with my Source intentionally to listen to it and hear the answers that I seek. In practicing this new habit I create space to experience something different and send a clear message to the Universe, God, Source that I am present and ready for action in alignment with it. 

As I attempted to drive for Uber and search for "odds and ends" jobs on Indeed for some supplemental income, I realized that for the first time in my life I was feeling really burnt out in the reaching out process as a business owner and practitioner. I could see that I was desperately searching for something that didn't require me to do anything above and beyond what another employer of a "regular 9-5" job would ask me to do. I could also see that the environment around me was shifting into a slow down mode and that it didn't matter how much I reached out, people simply weren't responding. I also remembered that MY energy and beliefs are affecting my surroundings at all times and that this was an opportunity to observe my Self and my actions from a deeper place. 

On the fifth day of the meditation, I received a call about a position I had applied for the week before. I couldn't stand the thought of working an admin job again so I applied at a couple of restaurants and a grocery store... none of which I was excited about, it would simply provide another stream of income. However, one afternoon I was headed into a nearby town and decided to search for places hiring and the first thing that popped up was a Craigslist ad, which I thought was strange. Who uses Craigslist for jobs? Then, I remembered that Craigslist helped me to find two of my favorite homes that I rented and what I experienced by connecting through that website was priceless. So, I clicked on the link and the first item at the top of the page was for a customer service agent at the Austin airport which is only 35 minutes away and there is no traffic on my country roads leading to it. The application took me an hour to complete online, but I felt so excited filling it out! This surprised me and also felt very easy and aligned. I felt so clear about the whole process, I knew I would be hired and I was still unsure why I was shifting my focus away from my practice and business. On the other hand, I have always loved traveling and LOVE everything about airports! The excitement of it, the people from all over the world converging into one space, the loading and unloading of passengers, the transit, the flow, the people watching... I love it ALL so much!

Long story, short... I was hired on the spot at the interview! The man interviewing me reminded me of previous managers I had worked for in the restaurant industry. I loved everything about working in restaurants and being a customer service agent feels just like it minus serving the food. I have always loved hosting gatherings and being in service to the community. The opportunity came out of no where it seemed. It has nothing to do with my practice or the vision of abundance in my mind and it all FELT so aligned and happened so quickly that I knew it was for me. There was no feeling of resistance in any of the process from training to the first day at the airport. In addition, the hours of this part-time, 15 hour a week job, fit perfectly into my schedule to allow me to continue growing The Adara Collective and working with private clients on the side. When I let go of thinking I needed to be doing something different, everything began to flow again. I am now very curious to see who I will cross paths with at the international travel counter of KLM... or maybe opportunities to bring sound healing into the airport communities??? All the new dreams to dream ❤️!

Within days of taking the position at the airport, I received a call from a colleague that I worked with a couple years ago who is now the Executive Director at a luxury recovery center. He invited me to be a part of their holistic services team and contracted me to share sound healing a few days per month with the people in the program. Within that same time frame, I found out that my partnership with Communities in Schools will continue with the high schools and disciplinary groups and that the grant I was written into was approved and Adara Collective will receive full payment for classes moving forward. It took me 3 years to establish myself with the school districts... It feels so wonderful to be acknowledged and valued. In addition to all of that... Five new clients scheduled sessions the same week ❤️!

As I sit with all the changes that have occurred over the last month I do my best to let go of any judgments that my brain might present to me regarding where it thinks I should be as I move into my 49th year next month... I let go of the labels around success and what that looks like in the eyes of anyone but my Self. I continue to follow the synchronicities and my intuition as I feel into each decision that I make in the creation of each moment of my life. I have found a freedom within me that I haven't felt for a while or maybe I am simply experiencing it more deeply now. I remember to allow myself to feel all the waves of emotions and allow myself to float right on through it all... Life in this human body really is too short to try to make something work or settle for anything less than your heart desires... Go find another sandbox to play in if you feel things become to hard or take too much effort ❤️

God, Source, My Higher Self, Universe... Whatever you want to call it... Continues to guide me and you, if that's what you believe. As long as I am listening to it as I go along this road, I will experience my dreams come true. And speaking of dreams... When I moved to Texas at the beginning of 2021, I dreamed of BEing in California on a quarterly basis and that has been happening quite fruitfully for the last year and half. And now, I get free parking at the airport for all my travels with this new job that the Universe provided ❤️!

I'd LOVE to see YOU while I'm in the Bay Area next week (August 10-18th)! Check out my calendar of events for the public group Sound Healing sessions that I'll be facilitating with the commUnity at the link below ❤️

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If you're interested in booking a Private In-Home session I have 2 openings currently in San Jose, please give me a call to schedule 408-398-8956 ❤️

As always... I Love You and Thank You for BEing on this journey with me! I wish you Wonderfilled Adventures and imagine squeezing YOU in-person soon!

All the Best,

Jess