Healing in these Interesting Times

Hello Beautiful Souls!!!

How are YOU this Marvelous Monday?

I have been feeling Excited and Challenged to do the things that make me feel excited. Does that make sense???

I have all these fabulous ideas in my head and when I go to do them, I find something else that keeps me from actually doing it! 

I have been doing some deep introspective work over the last month and have been presented with some things that I have been aware of but have had a lack of commitment in processing said things.

First, I became more aware of this underlying pattern or feeling of anger that seems to rise to the surface with the littlest irritations. Something being moved or placed somewhere that does not feel esthetically pleasing to my mind. People not seeing what I see so easily in others (really so I could avoid looking at my Self). My dogs not doing what I ask them to do, getting frustrated and yelling at them like a crazy person. 

Second, I became acutely aware of a practice of unwillingness to forgive people that the ego believes have "wronged" me in some way. An unwillingness to forgive when a relationship (platonic or intimate) has not worked out as the ego and mind "thought" it "should" have worked out. And the feelings of rejection that come with these beliefs that seem to keep me grasping and holding on to them for dear life. But, for what reason?

And then, there's that last part of the awarenesses of the moment... The belief that I need to be "right" in order to be loved, accepted and approved of by others. To show "others" how "good" I am so they can validate this for me... even though I don't believe in "right" or "wrong" or "good" or "bad"... the ego part of me does not agree! We really must let go of all these labels we humans like to use instead of just having an experience and moving on. Did it feel fluid in your body and mind? If yes, keep doing it. If no, ask why and then do something different.

What I am realizing is that this is the time for me to TRULY COMMIT to my Self and make more time for meditation, deeper connection and physical movement. Me time, not time spent trolling social media or staring aimlessly at the walls of my room. I have recently started working out with my neighbors in the morning which has been so helpful for my mental state even though the intention is to support the physical. They are all connected :) I am working on the meditation part. I have felt super resistant to it and the avoidance of it is only keeping me further from manifesting my heart's desires and vision of this Beautiful New World.

I realize that the current state of our world as we look at the physical "reality" does not seem very hopeful. I would like to remind you that from "chaos" comes Beautiful Change and this change has been happening in the unseen for many years now. I ask you to ask your Self... or better yet... ask the ego why it believes we are not able to live in a peaceful and loving way. REMEMBER... We are not our thoughts, we are OBSERVERS of our thoughts. 

When we CHOOSE to focus on what feels right for our Self and do what feels best within for our Self, then we will cease to focus on what others say, believe and do and then we will not be affected by the world outside as much. 

The IMAGINATION is where EVERYTHING begins. I encourage you to go deep within to see what you wish to bring forward into this new loving experience. I encourage you to OBSERVE your behaviors, thoughts and beliefs more often throughout your day. And, if you become aware that you are feeling or acting in an unloving way (anger, frustration, hatred, depression) I ask that you acknowledge and honor those feelings and then CHOOSE something that feels fluid in your body and mind. Welcome it ALL! Even the stuff that doesn't feel "good" and then make a conscious decision to release it through your breath... maybe do this in your meditations as well.

For me, the saving grace has been asking for help in my healing process. Asking other healers to provide a different perspective from a fresh pair of eyes. Sometimes we deal with things for so long that we tend to lose sight of what we were processing in the first place. It's kind of like working with a therapist that doesn't see a therapist. Basically, they're telling you they don't need help, but they're going to "help" you. We are ALL healers and none of us is here to do it alone. We must acknowledge this first and foremost... AND... Be ok asking for support.

I encourage EveryOne to BE Vulnerable and connect in with your Self and commUnity.

I encourage EveryOne to stop being so fearful and start feeling into the information being thrown out there. 

I encourage you to discern and make decisions that FEEL best for YOU and not give a F*CK what anyone else thinks, feels or says about you. You can consider it, but you don't have to take that shit personally. It's not yours in the first place. 

I LOVE YOU! And I look forward to seeing YOU in-person or virtually soon!

Maybe you're interested in joining us this Thursday (Oct 15th @ 7pm) for our IN-PERSON SOUND HEALING (social distancing edition) at SAMADHI YOGA GRUHA in downtown San Jose!

RESERVE YOUR SPACE HERE!!!

Sending Virtual Hugs and Kisses to EveryOne!